Wednesday, October 12, 2011

My heart's desire~

I just have the urge to open my laptop and type these few words on my mind, so I can bless other people with my story.
I kept on bugging my friends today by sending them text messages of what I have just "realized". Sigh*

I started my life as a dentistry proper student this year, I'm a proud 1st year student, again, I must say. 21 units, 21 grueling hard units, I presumed, Days passed, and our orientation came, it was told that our grades were back to zero, and  that we can aim for Cum Laude starting this semester. I wanted a good start, I wanted good grades, I wanted my spirit to be lifted, so I can tell myself I can make it through the remaining 4 years of studying.

On the second week of the semester, or perhaps third (I can’t remember any more) , I got my Temporary report card and posted some post its on it with the words:
 “Pinanghahawakan ko, walang dos sa  TRC, Uno all subjects… to God be the glory.”
When prelim was over I tried computing my grades, they seemed good at first, but when I computed the average, I was a bit sad, because I thought I was already doing my very best but I still got low grades.

Midterms, I’ll definitely say I didn’t do my best during this grading period. I was irresponsible, there were times when I didn’t study for a quiz, or perhaps times when I was studying with my mind flying over cloud 9. Perhaps I was a bit disappointed of the idea that even if I study I’d still get low grades, but I was wrong.

It was on that one morning, a few days before our midterm was over, when I found out that my grades during the prelim was not that low. I have classmates struggling to make their averages higher because they’ve got such a low average for prelims. Sigh*
I was wrong all along. God helped me through, and I didn’t even remember to thank Him, perhaps only once or twice, but in general, I wasn’t thankful, I was looking for something higher and better, much more than He wanted to give me, I was selfish and ignorant.
“I forgot my promise to Him…”
I wanted it for my own sake, when in the first place my sole purpose was to glorify His name.
I forgot everything I promised Him, and I guess that was my karma or perhaps God’s way of teaching me a lesson.

Today I had my final exam, and despite not having an exemption in some subjects I convinced myself that it was God’s will and that I must accept it. Yesterday I found out that I was exempted in one of the two exams today, I jolted with joy upon knowing, because I wasn’t expecting such. Yesterday I typed the words (on my cell phone):
                 “God may not always give us everything we ask for, but He always gives us what we need.”
Indeed God knows what we need and what’s best for us.
Today during our first exam my professor called out some random names, and to my delight I heard my surname, and like music to my ears she said that we must go out of the room quietly because we have been exempted from taking the first exam.
Success! I can’t help but smile today. I’ve been exempted for all the exams today. I came to know that we must always:
                “Delight ourselves to the Lord, and He shall shower us with countless blessings.”
I didn’t got to study much today for our first exam because I helped my friend finish his project. It was probably a blessing in disguise from up above, that I was exempted.
 I may not been exempted in some other subjects because of my midterm grades, but He found ways to exempt me from other things.

And through this story, I want people to know how great and loving He is. We may feel left out, or depressed whenever things go below our expectations, but let us always remember that He knows best, at all times, and let us never ever forget that He is always thinking of what’s best for us. Despite our shortcomings, and our forgetfulness He is still our Father, the most understanding and the most caring of all beings we’ll ever meet. I forgot my promise to God, but He kept His. Talk to Him always, and He shall also delight you with your heart’s desire. J

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Wake me up with Your wake up call.

Lord God, I need a wakeup call…
Something that would make me realize that I am destined for greatness, that what I have now is nothing compared to what’s in store for me.
Awaken me from my belief that what I have now is enough; teach me to value tomorrow and the present time, for what I do each and every day will eventually lead me to my ultimate reality someday. Let me appreciate the worth of my actions today for it shall in due time, result to my future.

Let me overcome all my frustrations and surpass all my fears, for as You have said 356 times in the Bible, “We shall not fear.”

Inculcate in me the virtue of an obedient servant and man of God, instill in me the thoughts of the most righteous person, and lastly, make me stay pure in words, and in actions, so as I can say that I have been truly worthy of being called Your child.

Lord God, You have blessed me in ways unimaginable, You have loved me with a love far greater than anyone could ever give me, You have always been there for me, whether in good times or bad.

You are my savior Lord God, and I want to spend each day to glorify your name, to praise You, and to worship You, from the moment I wake up to the time when I close my eyes and sleep.

Thank You Lord God for always hearing my pleas, and sometimes even my complains…
My wakeup call is here, deep within my heart is a soul crying…

In me is a new and better person, I am now ready and equipped with my armor and faith as my shield… I am now ready to once again continue my journey towards greatness, to glorify You name oh Lord


I wanna be worthy of being called your daughter.
and I'm asking God's help. i need him as my inspiration and motivating force. Down this long and winding road called life.  July 31, 2010

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

I am God's masterpiece!

I forgot what Sunday it was, but it was on that Sunday when I was as if slapped awaken...
Pastor Music (I don't know  his name, he just was so fond of singing, thus the name) gave an inspiring teaching that day that touched, not only me but many other people who attended church that Sunday.
It was quite a fulfilling day & his teaching focused on the topic that we are God's masterpiece, we have been carved in His image and likeness, we are His children & He has sent us here on earth for a greater purpose of which we must find.
Pastor taught us that we must find our passion and talent.

I want to become a dentist...
              But I have something much better in mind...
       And that is to WRITE.

All my life I have allotted my time and effort in scribbling notes & writing every little thought that crossed my mind... I wanna be a writer... But I'm just to scared of criticism & responsibilities.

Just before the teaching was over, Pastor Music left a striking atatement that I shall forever keep in mind...
              "No weapons formed against you shall prosper, every tongue that rises up against you, God
It made me realize I must not be afraid...

Because I've got a great Father behind me to back me up... He has given me this gift & I shall go forth & tell people about it...

I am His great masterpiece.
                In me is a special gift, He has entrusted...
                I am His servant & His instrument...

And I shall let the world know of His great love for us and His great deeds.

--And to you, find your passion, God's gift to you, harness it, hone it, & let us all together honor God's name.. =)